Sunday, January 15, 2017

Hello Ethan Frome

From the previous entry entitled The Great Perhaps: "Oh wait, what is it but another nymph reminding me of a book that was mentioned that I have not read and desire to; Ethan Frome."

Come to me, little book nymph. It is time. Listen, I was at the VA and actually enjoyed sitting in a tight little waiting room as the other vets talked of Clemson's upset victory over the mighty Bama. What a great game it was, what a worthy opponent Clemson. Bama got rid of its Yankee contender with a 24-7 victory and Clemson crushed their Yank with a 31 - 0 shut out. 24+7=31. It was in the numbers. Clemson and Bama stood as equals but the Tide would come up short by a touchdown. It was meant to be. As some of the other vets, commented- it was time.

The vets also talked of food and really good eating places in the area, particularly for those vets who had to travel a distance to get to the Birmingham facility. One that caught my attention was The Paw Paw Patch. I decided that is worth an adventure, and a scouting mission to make sure I know where to find it.

As far as reading Ethan Frome, I found a great website called LibriVox that has free public domain audiobooks, and Ethan Frome was among them. Even better is that I can download the mp3 files on my player and listen to it as I drive about. So, I downloaded the introduction and went out on my scouting mission.



So I am going to combine this audio reading with various driving adventures and see where Mr. Frome takes me.

Starkfield, Massachusetts is a completely fictitious place.

Wednesday, July 29, 2015

The Great Perhaps

These nymphs have flown out of the book written by John Green, called "Looking for Alaska."



If you have not yet read the book, they could turn into SPOILERS - you do not want them to find you and corrupt your reading transformation.




Start July 29 > The little nymph whispers to me, "What is the inspiration for Culver Creek Boarding School . . .does it exist in this interactive realm?"




Start July 30 > I decide to see if I could retrace John's path, but discovered the exclusive nature of the aristocratic reservation of the Indian Springs area.





I did explore the surrounding mansions and upscale hermitage homes and I felt some of the disdain that the Colonel expressed. The peace of the residents walking about their yards or down the well kept roads seemed surreal. One yard had its own 19th century cannon. Everything was neatly maintained. I saw a shiny black Benz pull up to a gate and watched it open in automatic deference to the driver.  I dared not stray from the public access road or tarry too long to raise alarm. Signs promised residents with electronic surveillance and an active neighborhood watch.

I saw five deer feeding along the side of the road. That along with the Blue Moon rising helped me to overcome the feeling of social exclusion.

The second nymph kissed me with this thought; "Why would the poor struggling mother of the Colonel send him into such an exclusive place?" So I took a look at his home town through Google:





Another nymph inspired me to look for Alaska's hometown of Vine Station, Alabama. I have not been able to locate it at all,even though that sounds very much like a small town in Alabama. So why would John Green use a real place for the Colonel and a fictions place for Alaska? I will sleep on that.

< End July 30.

Start August 8 > I am currently reading Paper Towns and I have read The Fault in Our Stars several times. I see a pattern of young males gathered up being young males, with the focus on some female that is a life altering event for these males, but most certainly for one chosen male. I wonder if John Green found a muse in his adolescence that has been with him ever afterwards in his creative pondering on life. Maybe this is why Alaska's hometown is quite possibly a fictional place whereas the Colonel's is most certainly in existence.

I drove by the Indian Springs school in pursuit of another Alaska nymph and saw a change. The gate next to Hwy 119 had been removed and I thought I might be able to take a gander of the campus. The just rebuilt a much nicer one a lit bit further down the road, not visible from the highway.



I also took a picture of the 19th century cannon.


The current Alaska nymph ignited a curiosity in the book that was so important to Alaska and to the story in general; The General in His Labyrinth. I remembered seeing a library down the road from the Indian Springs school and decided I would go there to see if I could find it. The following videos document the library adventure:














< End August 8

Start August 15 > I read the first chapter of The General and his Labyrinth, and got started on the second chapter. This is historical fiction about the last seven months Simon Bolivar of South American fame. I might read it if I was looking for inspiration in historical research, but generally it focuses on life's futility. Here is a man who accomplished great things in his revolution against Spain only to see his power base disintegrate as did his own health. I cannot arouse enough historical or personal passion to finish reading this book, because of it is full of sadness and futility and iconoclastic intimacy. I see there are many good quotes in the book, it just is not for me - at least not at this point in my life.



I found that I could flip to any part in the book, after reading the first chapter, and not get lost. It is a journey of the reflection of a powerful ego who was given the humiliation of futility to make up for his lack of humility. So I turned to the part that was cited by Alaska, on page 267:


Alaska asked Pudge to identify the Labyrinth. There were speculations that it was the awareness of death or that it was suffering in life. Alaska gave her own observations about the significance of the labyrinth on page 54;

"Jesus, I'm not going to be one of those people who sits around talking about what they're gonna do. I'm just going to do it. Imaging the future is a kind of nostalgia. . .You spend your whole life stuck in the labyrinth, thinking about how you'll escape it one day, and how awesome it will be, and imagining that future keeps you going, but you never do it. You just use he future to escape the present."

I think the labyrinth is the seeking of a resolution of my self-awareness, a purpose or destination in my life's journey. This brings a quietly screaming expectation that death will ensure the devoted seeker of significance accompanied by that ultimate reward of knowing. Yet, death is generally just an unexpected interruption of life. It offers no logical conclusion or completed resolution of the quest. I think John Green is toying with this idea in the use of aneurysm for the interruption of her mother's life and the shock of a child left to ponder that reality in intimate futility and a sense of personal failure. Her answer is to quit seeking and to live life in forced impulse. 

I noticed that Green also mentioned the occurrence of aneurysms several times in his book, "Paper Towns." An aneurysm is the sudden, unplanned interruption of life.

The nymphs and I are happy with this resolution and they are free to fly and to return as muse another day, if they so desire. Oh wait, what is it but another nymph reminding me of a book that was mentioned that I have not read and desire to; Ethan Frome.





Sunday, January 18, 2015

What's on 2nd?


The same day my daughter and I went out on a search for a record player for her new vinyl, we went to this place to continue the quest.








It was an interesting trip and we did find a record player on the third floor.  Its cord had been taped and it seemed sluggish to respond.  The owner gave it to us for $10.  I suspect that was a bust.  It was still a wonderful excuse for some father-daughter time.

Sunday, January 4, 2015

Leaping Toward


I watch her bravely leap into the interactive world.  The launch looks good, and the blood lives on beyond me.  Be prospered with that strength of heart.  

Thursday, January 1, 2015

The Voice of Vinyl Quest

I got some vinyl for my daughter since it is coming back into use.  I thought it would be a wonderful quest to find an old record player.  So we made a visit to Encore to see if there was such a little treasure tucked away.  We entered the store and the quest began with a smile from my daughter:














We found a lot of things that were interesting, but failed to find an old record player.  The cashier suggested we go to a store in Birmingham called "What's On Second."  The Path lured us on further.


Thursday, March 28, 2013

Republication of someone else's words:


By SHAWN COYNE | PublishedMARCH 22, 2013

We face two kinds of decisions in our lives.  These decisions define who we are as human beings.
Accomplished novelists/storytellers have a deep understanding of how to move their fictional characters to these two types of crossroads. It’s the same skill narrative nonfiction writers must have in their arsenal. Instead of creating events, the nonfiction storyteller must discern when real human beings have faced these choices, what decisions they made and how those decisions changed their lives permanently.

We do not live in an evil/good, joy/misery, satiated/starving kind of world. Never have. Never will.  Because we don’t—we always fall on a spectrum within the confines of each of these values—we rely on stories to help us figure out how to choose between two bad decisions or two irreconcilably good decisions (a phrase that my client Robert McKee uses and I love).

We model what kind of people we would like to be based upon our knowledge of epic stories. Stories are essential to negotiate a very complex world. They are what make us human. Neither horses nor papayas can tell stories, can they? If you want to become immortal, learn how to tell a story. Homer, Muhammad, Matthew, Luke, Mark and John anyone?

What do I mean by “The Best Bad Choice?” Here are two examples, one from the made up world and one from real life.

You’ve seen the movie Rocky? If you haven’t it’s a very simple set up.  The lead character of the movie is a Philadelphia Lunk named Rocky Balboa, a boxer with heart and a rapidly fading twinkle of talent. At the beginning of Sylvester Stallone’s screenplay, Rocky’s at that place we can all appreciate.  He’s accepted his station in life. He makes enough scratch from the local black hand as an enforcer to live the way he sees himself deserving to live . . . in a flop house with a sweat and bloodstained mattress propped on cinderblocks  two cans left of a six pack and half eaten slab of processed meat in the fridge.

Rocky still gets in the ring and even sometimes wins, but he’s really just . . . as my father used to say “getting Monday into Tuesday . . . Tuesday into Wednesday . . . and so on.” Stallone lets us soak up this mook’s life for a good chunk of pages before he gives us all what we know is coming.  Opportunity . . . THE BIG FIGHT . . . the inciting incident of every boxing novel/movie/story.

Rocky gets picked to fight the heavyweight champion of the world. Not because he earned it, but because of his silly pugilistic moniker . . . THE ITALIAN STALLION (do you think that choice of stage name had anything to do with his Stallone’s own scratching out a living in the adult film world?).

The chance to fight the big fight is what we all say we want, isn’t it?

If Random House just took my novel on as a lark . . . they wouldn't even have to give me an advance . . . I’d bust my butt, promote it like Hell and make it a success . . . I’d show them how wrong they are to dismiss my work . . .
We say to ourselves that given a lock, an opportunity, we’d be our best selves and kick some serious ass.  Would we though? Stallone knew that giving his fictional character the chance that we all want to get would seriously invest us in Rocky’s life.  Even a ballet dancer or billionaire would relate to this guy.

So where does the BEST BAD CHOICE come in here?  Rocky has no bad choice right? The Gods have intervened and given him something he always dreamed of . . . what could be bad about that?

In a brilliant scene that still sends chills down my spine, Stallone lets’ Rocky explain his situation to the arthritic, pockmarked old Irish trainer played by Burgess Meredith. There ain’t nothing wrong with archetypes/stereotypes if you do them right (specificity please) . . . and who doesn’t love the old battle-scared sensei? Even though Meredith’s “Mick” shamed Rocky by taking away his locker at the gym, it’s because he always expected more of Rocky . . . who he says had “moxie” before he became a bum.

When Mick comes to Rocky’s dump to offer his services as trainer, Rocky takes a long look at his situation.  He knows he’s being played for the patsy.  He has two bad choices.

The first choice is to fight the champ and get the crap kicked out of him.  The champ is the greatest fighter of all time and could very likely kill him with one accidental blow to his head. Not only could he die, at the very least he will be humiliated . . . he’ll become a barroom joke . . . not just in Philadelphia, but all over the world. That’s his first choice.

The second choice is seemingly not so bad.  He could beg off, tell the champ he appreciates the shot, but he’s just not at his level.  There would be no shame in that would there?  He’d be able to keep threatening welshers for his mafia boss and he could stay in his flop for the rest of his life. No one would blame him for that choice. Really only one person, two actually, would find that choice cowardly.

Rocky knows that choice, the second one, is death.  And he knows that Mick knows that too. Because even though Stallone never literally states it, Mick made that choice decades before . . . this is why Rocky and Mick are a perfect match to take on a power as great as the champ.

The best bad choice for Rocky is to fight. He can take a physical beating, but he won’t be able to live with himself with a psychological one. He’ll always be a bum, but at least he’ll be an honorable one. Mick knows this . . . this is why he dragged his ass to Rocky’s row house.
What about nonfiction?


(Stallone was inspired to write Rocky by the life of the Bayonne Bleeder, Chuck Wepner, and his 1975 fight with champ Muhammad Ali by the way . . . )

A while back, two men in powerful positions in the U.S., one a member of Congress and one a Governor were faced with the same BEST BAD CHOICE situation.  Both men, as men seem to do over and over again, lost themselves in their intoxicating positions of being highly respected members of government.
A great number of people relied on these men, sacrificed for these men and believed in them. But if you had to boil down to the single other human being on the planet who believed in them the most, you’d have to say their life partners—their wives—sacrificed the most for them.

I’m sure their wives were not and still aren’t saints and that the relationships had all of the deeply serious challenges that any committed one does. But the fact is that there’s just one rule in a committed relationship that is unassailable.

You must remain faithful. You cannot cheat.

Both men were weak. They cheated on their wives.  They both made a terrible choice, one that they most likely continued to make over and over again until they got caught.  (I’m no psychologist, but it’s pretty obvious that everyday people, not sociopaths, do stupid things more out of self-sabotage than animus).

Both were caught cheating. One chose to call a press conference, admitted that he did so and eventually resigned as the Governor, probably destroying his political career for the rest of his life in the process.

The other said his computer had been hacked and denied that he did anything inappropriate. Eventually after overwhelming evidence that he was lying, the second man finally admitted that he not only did what he said what he didn’t do, but that he lied about it twice…once to his wife and then to the world.

Both men had to face THE BEST BAD CHOICE . . . admit a character defect and take the consequences or lie and maybe get away with it. One man’s bad choice was truly better than the other wasn’t it? The guy who came clean right off the bat? You have more sympathy for that guy don’t you? You’re more likely to give that guy a break than the other one wouldn’t you?

This is the stuff of humanity and by association art.  You must understand the concept of the best bad choice and artfully place your characters is these kinds of situations and have them choose.  The choices they make will tell the reader/viewer/listener what kind of person they are.

If you’re afraid of doing this, read this: “Art and Polarity.”
The flip side to the best bad choice is the concept of irreconcilable goods.  I’ll explain what that means in my next post.


Sunday, March 3, 2013

The Lyra Constellation

March 2nd >  A synchronicity between K-Pax and Contact is the constellation Lyra.  The use of prime numbers to communicate.  I was already in a meditative state, and this movie, Contact, seemed to trip something.  I withdrew to the Dungeon, and felt the overwhelming energy.  I simply could not process it, for it was both painful and exhilarating. It reminded me of being caught in a prolonged sexual climatic release, except that it was coming into me – a current? I do not know.  And then came the place of quiet, and the simple will paralysis.  I knew to surrender if I desired to trance, to see beyond.  Not to fight or push it.  I saw movement, fluid like waves, like wisps swirling around me.  Dark as in almost holding mass.  The medium of their presence was this waving flow of energy.  The room was…less stable?  I felt I had received too much expanded knowing to translate it, to truly gain from it.
It has to do with Elizabeth.  My own Ellie.  Her future.  I think so.  I fear to limit it to that, because I am her Father and maybe I could be prejudiced by my desire to see her fulfilled, and … fear.
I have to release this … there is so much to do.